Saturday, July 26


I'm going to take my life's next big step into a new phase in life, starting from the shift to my new room. Settled in, and ready for camp, ready for school.

Posted by Isabelle at 2:49 pm

Tuesday, July 15


Never make someone your priority if you are just an option.

-- as quoted

Posted by Isabelle at 1:09 pm

Sunday, July 13


数不清的泪，已不知是为了过去的美好回忆，还是现实的残酷独处。为何此时此刻犹豫的平静，却被我那思潮起伏的情绪而断了线。我的每一牵思念，每一珠泪滴，又有谁能触摸到，感受到？

Posted by Isabelle at 4:10 am

Thursday, July 10


I seldom simply paste a song's lyrics here, but here I am.

I'm finding my way back to sanity again,
Though I don't really know what I'm going to do when I get there.
Take a breath and hold on tight,
Spin around one more time,
And gracefully fall back to the arms of Grace.

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say and,
Even if you don't want to speak tonight that's alright,
Alright with me.
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing,
Is where I want to be.
Yeah.
Where I want to be.

I'm looking past the shadows in my mind into the truth and I'm,
Trying to identify the voices in my head.
God which one's you?
Let me feel one more time what it feels like to feel alive,
And break these calluses off of me,
One more time.

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say and,
Even if you don't want to speak tonight that's alright,
Alright with me.
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside your door and listen to you breathing,
Is where I want to be.
Yeah.

I don't want a thing from you.
Bet you're tired of me waiting for the scraps to fall off your table to the ground.

'Cause I just want to be here now.

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say and,
Even if you don't want to speak tonight that's alright,
Alright with me.
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing,
Is where I want to be.
Yeah.

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say and,
Even if you don't want to speak tonight that's alright,
Alright with me.
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing,
Is where I want to be.
Yeah.
Where I want to be.
Where I want to be....

Posted by Isabelle at 11:22 pm


I'm wavering. I think I can no longer see ahead of me, and tell myself, 'hey, I want to be there'. Not knowing what I want throws me into the dark and leaves me fumbling for an exit. It's a current status quo for me, I'm doing a temporary balancing act, but I know that it won't last long. I have to make a choice.

As to what kind of choice? What kind of moves should I make? How can I answer that question when there is no direction? How do I deal with the situation when I can't make up my freaking mind what kind of ending I want?

Am I supposed to just let it stay this way, to let myself continue circling the same spot, or do I grapple with the choices and let gravity make the decision?

Posted by Isabelle at 10:49 pm

Saturday, July 5


Spent my birthday in peaceful bliss. For once in a very long time I didn't spend my birthday in school. Not that I'm complaining about the previous years, it's just a good change. A damn good one at that.

Fish spa, Singapore Flyer, Dinner at East Coast.

Posted by Isabelle at 10:36 pm


As time ticks further, it brings us closer,
for tomorrow is within reach, and our distance will be breached.
May this silent night, bring us pleasant blight,
as our little sky bears the same light and our hearts unite.

Posted by Isabelle at 10:35 pm